REBlog

Hi.
I've decided to start blogging again or maybe it's for just this one time due to the boredom of converting footage (film student). I am in my final year, after this the tale of college will be told and I will be thrown into the monstrous "real world". Unless I decide to take another course or something. I wanna be and Editor or work in the Art Department on Films. We shall see what happens, for all I know, I will be working at Tim Hortons for a year before anything real ever happens or maybe I will just stay at my lovely grocery store job......Let's talk about that.
Working in a grocery is a fascinating experience. You learn a lot about things, a lot about people. They become zombies when they enter, they see only food and what they want, nothing else. Trying to maneuver around in a grocery store is very hard, you don't exist to them. What they buy is also interesting. SO MUCH processed food, ugh, kills my guts just thinking about it. It's getting a little out of hand...sandwichs now come in a can..wtf. UNNECESSARY!
Well whatever, people can suffer the digestive consequences of that one later, but I will not be partaking in that canned adventure. I, for a while, chose to pretend it didn't exist! Like it was something from the X-files.

OH! Posting stuff.

Hey. So I've been uber busy with life lately. Turning 20 seems to be quite the ordeal at this point, I mean, I have no idea what the hell I'm doing which is fantastic! I love being lost in giant world with no corners to hide in. It occurred to me the other day while sitting on the floor of my kitchen that how I have no plan, no map, no anything! I have no clue what the hell I'm going to do after I graduate, and on an earlier note where the hell I'm going to live this summer! STRESS IS MY FAVORITE!

Anyhow. I'm sure I will figure things out even if I ha

ve to work somewhere lame for awhile after a graduate (Not Wendys). Blah. 

On another note, no one reads this and I rarely post which is awesome. Maybe someone will stumble on to my written rants and take the time to absorb clusterfuck of ideas I put on display. Or you can watch me do it in my videos. HUZZAH! 

Well lets get on with something more serious. COLLEGE! Yes my second year is well underway and it's pretty god damn intense! All-nighters or very little sleep. It's called broadcasting and is the hardest bloody thing i've ever done! I'm a FILM student! I walk as a zombie and see through the eyes of no comprehension. My mind breaks, but it can actually be beneficial. Weird I know, but I start to think at different angles, if that makes any 

sense. I see things through a new light, and it aids in my writing and thinking. Being over tired is almost a type of high, minus the drug part, it's still not good for you but what can you do. I need to get work done but still find time to enjoy this things called life. I actually seem to function better (till I crash) with little sleep. I've started buying energy drinks here and there.... that's probably dumb but meh. I'm a pretty he

althy person, I think one once in a while won't kill ya.  

Crash & Burn

So my computer died last week, it's fixed now....200 bones later. It's sucks not having it (just realized my chair is too low) it's something I take for granted. It is a social & work tool that I use everyday. I can't really complain though, I've had it for almost 3 years & never had a problem. It just sucks that the problem was soo big. The hard drive failed so I lost everything on it, but that's fine I guess, fresh start. I've almost re-created my music library again...at least the important stuff. My tastes have changed a lot in the last little while, so I'm glad some of the music I had is gone. Yay for Psycho-billy!

I'm back to the college grind, well it's a slow start but once it picks up it won't let up I'm sure. Then there's part 2 of college: the social world. It started off a little bumpy, but hopefully it smooths out. I think the biggest problem is that people either worry too much or not enough. People can sometimes have a tendency to get too involved in others problems by trying to be helpful. Then they either become a pest by thinking they know the answer (sometimes it's best to leave it & let one figure it out themselves) or the problem rubs off on them & tensions rise. On the other hand, people may not think of others at all & hurt them unknowingly. There is a balance that has to be reached. One of the most important things I have learned is that if someone tells you something in confidence, or if you think it is something personal keep it to YOURSELF. They will talk about it with others when they are ready. Minimize the gossip. Also, watch who you rely on you never know when something will arise (so also have a backup plan). Oh, and always watch your back. There are some serious creepers out there.

It's nice living on my own again. Mostly due to food. I get to eat what I want & since I'm not much of an carnivore it works out really well. GO FRUIT! I also like having the freedom of staying out to when I want & figuring out situations on my own. However; it can be scary too. Sometimes I just don't know what to do! That's when I call the parents.

When life is a joke eat animal crackers.

I called in sick today. I'm not sick, not really. I've never called into work for no real reason. Why? because I didn't have a reason. I've always taken my job seriously, even if I was invited to the most amazing party in the world, work would come first. However; when the job itself doesn't take me seriously, then we have an issue. I've been working at a fast food restaurant for 6 weeks, I have worked a total of 19 hours. I've been working 3 hours per week. Why the fuck did they hire me? Today I was suppose to work 2 hours which would be why I called in. I applied there because I desperately needed a job, I'm in college I need the coinage. I assumed that when I was hired it was because they NEEDED me. I was wrong. I feel as though they have abused my time, and have made me feel worthless. I know it's only a fast food job, but that's not the point. It's still a job. People who think they are too good to work at one are foolish, because from my experience it's hard work, which I don't mind (except for the part where I come home smelling like french fries). There is nothing wrong with it, you are busy all the time. Anyway, thanks for hiring me, I've made maybe 400$ this summer, and have probably spent 500. FU. Now where are my animal crackers?
Oh and those who order 8 burgers through the drive through can go to hell. And for those who get extra meat and biggy size, you may want to take up exercising and salad. I love how we live in a fast food nation.

Zombies.

Lately I've had horror on the brain. I've been wanting to write a story that I may adapt into a script. I've been listening to Psychobilly/Horrobilly music (which I must say, Is a fan-fucking-tastic genre of music!). I had a random dream about zombies the other night, which came after the dream about Coldplay playing at the college orientation :s which I thought was more random.
All this draws me to one conclusion: I love Horror.
The only problem is finding decent horror movies. I watched the new Friday the 13th movie, and it was lammme, White Noise was stupid, The Grudge was also stupid, Boogeyman was ok...could have been better, but all-in-all I've been very disappointed in the most recent Horror flicks I've seen. However! Diary of the Dead was really good, not really that scary, but good non the less.

So. I've decided that I'm going to go on a hunt in order to find movies that contain actual HORROR. It will a battle I'm sure but I will go to the bowels of the 5.99 movie bin if need be and I will not give up till I find real horror!
So far the only movie I can recommend that I actually found kinda scary was The Exorcist. Some will say it's lame, or corny, but personally if you really think about the idea of possession being real, and a story like that actually happening (which you never know) it gives the film a whole new respect. Also, the story line is pretty solid. Even though how she got possessed in the first place is a little lost (she was playing with a Ouija board which can, according to some in the paranormal business, be dangerous. It can put you in contact with demons and such, and has been said to lead to possession). I find the idea of trying to defeat something that has no form, no visual weakness, something that psychological weapons instead of physical ones to be terrifying. How do you go about defeating something like that?

Going Where?

So. August is almost here which tells me summer will be coming to a close sooner than later. There are many things I still wanna do! Such as getting drunk around a camp fire on a starry night with friends. I also wanna finish up a few more fun sewing projects before I don't have time to.
I'm rather upset of how little money I'm going to make this summer. I mean it's sort of a crucial thing when going to college, but my parents are being good about it. It just means I'm gonna have to be a little more thrifty is all.
I'm sort of worried about where this new school year will lead me. I mean it's second year and I have to start figuring out where my ambitions are in the media industry. It's odd, I hate the media because it lies and sensationalizes yet I'm going into it. Mostly because I wanna show people the truth I think. Do something that brings change, or can inform. (not the news though, boring). I wanna be creative.
I'm actually living in a house this year with four other girls. I hope we all get along, and I'm sure if any problems do occur we can sort them out. I do look forward to fun themed nights or craziness. My room in the house is kinda small, but really, who cares? I mean I think I have pretty rad decorating skills. I just have to make the room cozy!
Oh, so I went to see Green Day in concert. All I can say is they are amazing!!!! I really want to go again. Billie Joe is amazing on stage. I got all teary eyed....I was just really excited!

Experience an Asset

Boredom. It Haunts me. Everyday. Jobs seem to be scarce, and it's not like I haven't tried. I gave out probably 30 or more resumes, plus I went and tried to talk to managers. I also called back a few places to see what was up only to get a 14.5 sec interview which consisted of:
"what kind of experience do you have?"
"well I worked at a drug stor-"
"restaurant experience."
"I have never worked in one, but-"
"well I'm sorry this isn't the job for you , we need some one with experience."
"ok, thanks for your time" (more like wasting MY time)
Not to mention the fact that she was a complete Bitch the whole time who was not dressed in any manner to run a business. I mean there's casual then there is track pants with Crocs plus a sweater with a kitty on it and unwashed hair. Also, how does one gain restaurant experience if you need restaurant experience to work in a restaurant?? I'm pretty sure if I did happen to get a job there I would have called the health department. All the places that were hiring in the area were indeed restaurants so they indeed hired people with experience over me. My last hope is Wendys. Come on WENDYS!
It may turn out to be a very boring summer, and 0 income summer. woo.